i guess it's not always a bad thing that nobody reads xanga anymore. especially when you're journal-less. pat called me tonight. after a long ass horrible day, i'll tell you, it didnt hurt hearing from him one bit. he said he wrote me a letter monday so that means i should get it tomorrow. this one will have his address on it too so i can finally write him back. : ) so i was in the hospital all day today. there was a syst on my left ovary and it ruptured. i had to pee in cups, get blood work done, get saline and barium pumped into my body, cat scans, ultra sounds...it was a long day. being at the doctors office/hospital/surgeons clinic from 9-3 today was not how i intended on spending my day. it could've been worse though i guess. i feel better now. my little best friend brought me pretty purple flowers and yellow powerade tonight. i got a voice mail from the entire basketball team telling me that they love me, jarv called to check on me, and cesar called to make sure i'm alright. it's good to know people care. i get to miss school again tomorrow. that's 3 days this week that i get to miss school. i'm not complaining. lin is going to come visist me tomorrow at lunch. speaking of elections though, issue 9 didnt pass. that sucks. there goes choir, band, athletics. all i can say is that i'm glad i'm graduating this year. it's so sad for all the teachers losing there jobs. what will newark have now? our town's going to be an absolute piece of shit. it's disppointing to know that we cant come back to see the choir concerts or the wiggs. i applied to some colleges yesterday. cinci, ohio northern, and osu. mrs. wiggs is going to start helping me with my auditions soon. there are still a few more colleges i want to apply to, but those apps by themselves were $200. lin, jarv, and i went out to eat yesterday night at brew's. it was a good night. i havent hung out with jessica in a while. if all goes as planned, i think her and lin are staying the night with me this saturday. we had a fun time seeing darren and john at brew's. we went out back and hung out with them for a while. so counseling is going okay. i'm pretty sure next week will probably be my last one, or pretty close. things are already better around here and it's not really needed. it was nice to be able to talk to her though. i've realized a lot lately that i really never saw so clearly. and you know, i don't know how i was so naive to it for so long. it's time to grow up people. this is our last year of being babied. well, for most of us atleast. for those of you who havent chosen to grow up yet, i really feel sorry for you. i'm not going to waste my time or energy trash talking you and spreading rumors. we will never see these people again after this. why waste all of your time revolving your entire life around somebody that's not going to matter soon? and for some people who just can't find anything better to do than talk about people, that really sucks for you. i'm so happy that my best friend and i have our own fun and it's not based on you. i really feel bad for you. your life must suck. well that's all. i'm off to call my best friend and watch roseanne before i load up on tylenol 3 and pass the fuck out. goodnight <3 | 
